My Internet Is Back!!

For some odd reason, our internet was down... and I found out when I needed to work from home nontheless! Anyway, 9/28 was kind a while back (considering) and Toni has new stuff already!

So fresh on my mind, her appetite is growing and I am having a hard time keeping up the supply! She is working me hard. I'm getting up twice during the night (early morning) just to pump some more so she has enough for school. And when I say enough, I mean JUST enough... to the point where I think pretty soon it won't be enough. So I'm in a bit of panic mode. I mean I know there is always formula and I can just use it as a supplement... and I know there's nothing wrong with that... but if I can just do breast milk, then the better. So I went to GNC and bought some Fenugreek vitamins. They supposedly help increase milk supply. Everyone I know that has tried it, swears by it. And all of what I read about it on the web says so too. So why have I never tried it before? Because throught the thousands of articles and forums I must have read through, I read ONE entry from a lady who said it made her supply stop! That ONE was enough to scare me off! Better not risk it right? Well a couple months later and here I am getting desperate. I figure, if I don't pump enough she's going to have to drink formula anyway. So I may as well give it a shot. I've been taking it since last Sunday and still no increase. So I'm thinking... great. I'm the one out of a million. But I know it may take a few days so I look it up while at work today. For most it takes 24-72 hours and then for some up to two weeks. So... maybe I'm a two weeker? All hope is not lost? And then... EUREKA! I figure out what the problem is... well maybe. The bottle says take 1-2 capsules a day. Everywhere I read online says that the vitamin bottles always tell you the wrong amount and that just 1-2 capsules a day isn't going to do jack! That if you have the 610mg capsules (which i do) to take at least 1-2 capsules THREE TIMES DAILY! Holy cow! So I've been taking them for no reason basically. But it made me a little happy because then I thought, GREAT! maybe it will work! Believe you me, I took more today. haha! And I am praying that I'm one of those 24 hour cases... or less! I read one lady doubled her amount! Oh man, please let that be me!

Anyway, on the topic of breastfeeding/breastmilk I have been wanting to blog about the craziness it has been making in the media lately. Ok, so obviously I am all for breastfeeding. Again, not there is anything wrong with formula feeding but in my opinion I think breastfeeding is best if it can be done. But there is a part of me that may be a little contradictory on it. While I think all babies should be breastfed if they can, I think that on some level it's a little weird... almost gross if the milk doesn't come straight from that baby's mama. Now, there are those cases where some women just are overflowing with milk and don't know what to do with it and they donate it to milk banks. Again... a little creepy. But then again, you have those premies who can really benefit from that allowing them to thrive... and so I'm all for that. But now here come the PETA folks who want to stop using cows milk in the Ben & Jerry's ice cream and replace it with human breast milk!? ARE YOU FREAKIN OUTTA YOUR MINDS?! GAAAARRRRROSSSS!!! I know, it probably is better for everyone and their health but I don't give a rats ass! You leave my cows milk in there or no more Ben & Jerry's for me!

Ok, then you have the whole Jamie Lynn Spears story about how she one, was breastfeeding in public and peoploe had a problem with it. I say to those people, Go F yourselves! I'm no Spears (of any kind) fan but breastfeeding is natural. It's how it's always been. Now I don't know the whole story, but unless she whipped her boob out for all to see what's the big deal? They have covers and concealing nursing shirts. So get over yourselves people. You were probably breastfed too. And then there's the story of her breastfeeding pictures leaking out... first of all... shame on her and her man for taking that to Wal-mart! DUH. That aside, does that really turn men on? I mean I know there are "breast men" out there but when they are feeding someone... really? Is it still a turn on???

OK, I'm done with my blog about breastfeeding. haha! Moving on to Toni!

So this past weekend was her second try at eating solids and she did so well!!!! Better that the first time! And she's so eager too! She already has the hang of the spoon goes in the mouth to feed. The only problem was I think it wasn't coming fast enough. That may be partly my fault b/c whatever didn't make it in her mouth or came back out I was trying to spoon back in and she was just like 'give me another spoonful now!' I'm sure this contributes to her increased appetite. Oh man... I feel like I'm not feeding her enough! I'm thinking of trying this weekend and the whole week after to feed her the cereal. See how she does. That might actually decrease my supply if she's not demanding it since she's eating cereal, but if these vitamins work hopefully it won't be a problem.

She has her full on giggle!!!! It's amazing how much happiness a giggle or a smile can bring! She doesn't always do it, but more so than before! I'm going to have to record her one time and post it here. It's hard to ever get her to do it again once you've stopped doing whatever it was that made her laugh. It's a hit or miss. But she always smiels real big like she's going to laugh no matter what. People say she's such a happy baby!

In her exersaucer/stationary entertainer... she can pull on the hanging toys now!!! There are three and when you pull them each one plays a different melody. Well one is this butterfly with a ring that was easy for her to pull. so naturally that was the first one. The second one is a catepillar and there is a tag at the bottom so she grabs that and pulls on it. The third one is tha hardest. It's a turtle and so it's round with tiny feet at the bottom. She FINALLY was able to grab it yesterday and pull on it! Junior and I were watching here and she was working really hard to do it. She even tried gathering all of them together to try and pull all of them. When she finally did it we got so excited and cheered that she kind of looked at us like, 'what happened?'

Her vocals are outrageous! At church I'm holding her in my lap with a toy for her to play with so she doesn't get bored and fussy. But she'll stare and observe at her toy before going, "AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH......" and putting it in her mouth. Mind you the "AHHHH..." doesn't stop just because it's in her mouth. There is a reason why we sit in the cry room! haha!

She's more responsive to her name now. I used to think that it was just that she responded to my voice or junior's voice. But now I know that she responds to her name.... sometimes. hahaha...

She found my shadow the other day! I had her on the changing table and the light cast my shadow on the wall above her head. She kept tilting her head up and was laughing (the big smile laugh with no noise that is). At first I was thinking, what is she so excited about. There's nothing on that wall. Then I realized she was getting a kick out of my shadow. So now, I have to move my head and shake it all sorts of ways and she gets really excited... at my shadow. haha!

Her feet! Before she was starting to find her feet. It's full on now! She grabs those suckers all the time! And this morning she got some toes in her mouth!

She's enjoying her baths much more. She never disliked it but she usually just sat there really still. Well tonight she was kicking and the I think she liked the splashing b/c she kept doing it until the water drained.