I Cried

Yes, I cried. We dropped her off and you can totally tell who the newbie was. There I was standing in her room just staring at her while parents came in and out dropping their kids off... yet I'm just standing there and the teachers are looking at me like "you can go now." haha! Of course I needed to give her just one more kiss... about five times. She smiled, the big one like she's almost laughing. Then as we were leaving the room, she followed us with her eyes out and still staring at us through the window still doing fine and here I am taking deep breaths to hold it together. I quickly say bye to the director on the way out because talking would just make me spill. As soon as we got out, the tears came. Junior was like, "Are you going to be ok?" I said yes, but I was so heartbroken.

But of course (and fortunately) all was well. She did fine. Well... maybe not 100% fine. She didn't eat too much because she kept refusing the bottle. Sigh.... but once I tried feeding her the bottle after Junior picked her up, she did just fine. Hmm... weird. It seems seh only takes the bottle from me. But then again, I'm sure she was so hungry that she just latched on and drank her way into happy land. Tonight both Junior and I fed her with a bottle and she did just fine. So I'm hoping tomorrow will be a better day for her in terms of that.

First day of work was good, overwhelming and tons of work, but good. At least there was so much going on (I already attended 2 meetings... what do I know?) that it helped pass the day away. So by the time Junior came to pick me up he had Toni already. Made my day! I have to admit, though, that while I pumped during the day I could do nothing but think of her. I mean I was pumping for her, but that "down" time gave me the chance to miss her. I teared a little. haha! Well, hopefully tomorrow will be better. This time I get to pick her up from daycare. So that should be a new experience for me.