Getting Better

So this week, so far, is not as bad as last week. It is true, it does get better. And here I thought, it will never get better. I will always want to stay home with Toni... increasingly so. Don't get me wrong, if the opportunity presented itself and it was feasible I'd do it still! That will never change. But at least I'm not feeling so down about it anymore. Maybe it's because she's doing better with the whole thing as well. Actually, the better she was with the whole situation, the more it got harder for me because it almost feels as if she doesn't need me. Selfish? Maybe. But I'm her mother dammit. I'm allowed. haha! But she's not just getting better with it all, she is herself again and I think that plays a big part. These last couple of days when I went to pick her up, she'd smile at me and get really happy! So of course, that makes me happy. And when we get home, she likes to talk and play with me some before eating and going to bed. She's not as tired as she was initially. I'm sure that also has to do with her eating habits getting better and better. I think what may also play a part is that work is not quite as overwhelming as it was the first week. It is insane the amount of work and things you have to know! Seriously! But I don't mind the work load as much because I know I'll keep busy and be challenged which will make the day pass faster (and I can see Toni!) and I won't get bored. haha... I say that now, but maybe six months from now I'll take that back and wish I could take a break. haha! we'll see.

Toni's hair is getting pretty long, but it still sticks straight up! haha! So yesterday I had the great idea of tying her hair in a tiny ponytail on the top of her head. HEE HEE!!!! She looked like a little kung fu girl with her hair like those kung fu people... kind of. The TINY ponytail sticks STRAIGHT, but I couldn't get all of her hair in it. So her bangs and side hair are still down. hahaha! I took a picture with my camera phone, but the quality isn't so great. Maybe I'll print it anyway. Later I put a clip in her hair to hold back her bangs. Oh my... soooooo adorable! I was going to take a pic with the regular camera but the battery was dead. So I charged it and stupid me, I proceeded to give her a bath after that which means I took all of the stuff out of her hair. DUH GAIL! Oh well. One day I'll try again. That tiny rubber band was BARELY in her hair to begin with! You could flick it with your finger and it could fly off. haha! Maybe next time I"ll get ambitious and try for pigtails! Awww.... my little princess! It's insane how much I love this girl!