Anxiety

Mostly because tomorrow is my doctors appointment and the whole weight thing is giving me the anxiety. I think this time I really did jump in my weight. At least according to my scale. I'm hoping it's water retention because I did lack a little on that issue last few days. But still, I'm scared a jump in my scale will mean it's off the charts on her scale. Wouldn't that suck? But who knows. Maybe it'll be the opposite. ughh.... I wish I could skip that part.


But ok, anxiety also because I'm really starting to get the sense that D-day is near. I'm realizing that I really don't have much time left before Bagel makes her appearance. But, I'm also starting to feel much more uncomfortable these last few days than normal. The tightness that comes and goes that is uncomfortable SOMETIMES hurts a bit. Like cramps almost. yikes. This is it isn't it? I'm starting to think that maybe Bagel will come earlier than her due date. Maybe I'm just thinking that because I'm feeling things I haven't really felt before, but I don't know. Maybe she will.


Today I printed out a packing list because supposedly I should have already packed my bag just in case. eeek! I still can't believe I'm at that point. And I've been thinking that we haven't even really thought of alternatives. Like what if I go into labor or my water breaks and Junior is at work. Who do I call? I know if I'm at work it won't be a problem. Someone there can take me. We haven't even set anyone up to watch Jake (our dog) for when we are at the hospital yet. Oh man... we better get a move on.


OK, on a brighter note I got my traveling system today!!! yay!!! FINALLY! So yesterday when I got home, there was yet ANOTHER notice saying they attempted to deliver. OK... for one, I guess they found it because they were saying that someone had already signed for it. I don't know. Two, why are they STILL trying to deliver it at my home when we first tried having them deliver it to my work and THEN told them to keep it a will call? Whatever. So I called UPS when I got home because one of the packages (the traveling system) had a 3rd a final attempt and they were no longer going to try and deliver it; we would have to pick it up. The second package was the first attempt. ANYWAY, so I call and tell them the whole story. Long story short, the guy changes (yet again) the address and says they will try this FOURTH time to deliver it to my work. However, if the attempt fails it will be returned to sender. OK. Now I'm not worried about a failed attempt because someone is always at my work to sign. BUT I am worried they'll try delivering to my home AGAIN. So I ask the guy if there is any other way to reassure that that won't happen. Do you know he had the nerve to tell me that there is NO RECORD of me ever having changed the address before. WTF?! First, that didn't answer my question and second you better check yourself again. But ok, I didn't let my pregnancy hormones get the best of me... on the phone anyway. I was whatever about it. SO, today they delivered it to my work, thankfully. But just the one package. haha! Don't ask me why they didn't deliver the other one. I figured I'd wait until afternoon because sometimes UPS comes to us twice at work. Well they didn't. So I checked the tracking online and it says that they attempted for the first time at the "new" address and it failed. WTF!?! I don't think so! So I call them and they realize they messed up... AGAIN. And supposedly they tried delivering to my home... AGAIN. Anyway, they make sure the address was changed and even called me back to confirm that the package was pulled off the truck and placed into the one that comes to my work. Which sucks since I won't be there tomorrow. But someone there can sign for me. So it's ok. But I get home today, and I don't see any notice of any attempt! Yeah right they attempted. I think that package sat it's little ass on the truck all day and didn't move. sigh.... moving on.


This Friday I get a changing table! yay!!! We weren't going to get one b/c we figured it wasn't all that necessary. We could always change the baby somewhere flat. But my sis in law Lisa said her mom got a good deal on it and therefore it is a good deal for her and she would get it for me if I wanted. She wouldn't even let me pay. She said we could just exchange it for babysitting night. Which I would have done anyway and paid! I love those kiddos! Did I blog about this already? Oh well if I did. But it's so awesome how she and my brother have really helped us out. I mean, really! How do you thank someone enough for something like that? Junior seems to think, and I agree, that it's partly because my parents have passed on. And since Junior's mom lives in Toronto, we don't really have the helping hand like my brothers get or have gotten. It's so kind of them... it really is. And it still breaks my heart to this day that my kids will never know my parents. I hate that I can't have the pregnancy conversation with my mom either. Like did she experience certain things that I may be experiencing or what? Or get some advice or tips from her. Sigh.... what can you do right? Life goes on. Wow... if that alone gets me emotional, I will be one emotional wreck on d-day! I'll experience that rollercoaster of emotions I did when we found out we were pregnant, but times ten!


Oh yeah. I think Bagel has found her favorite side. She likes to be on the right side of me a lot. I always feel (what I'm guessing is) her foot right under my ribs on the right side and at the same time I feel her in my lower left abdomen. So she seems to be diagonal a lot. But then there are those days were it seems she is all on the right side because my right side is fuller and pointer. Like the center of my belly shifted to the right and my left side is soft. So I have a bit of a strange point off to the side. I think she tends to favor that side. Even as I blog, I can feel her foot (i think it's her foot) under my right ribs. it's fun to watch sometimes.


Did you notice I didn't have (or barely had) any typos? I proofread this time. haha! By the way, I added a poll so please take it! Thanks!