Dream

I've read that it's common for pregnant women to dream about already having had the baby and experiencing the motherhood (taking care of the baby, changing diapers, etc.). Not that this is the first time I've experienced a dream like that, but last night was interesting and kind of exciting. Now this may be TMI (too much info) so you may want to skip this part. But for those of you that love the entertainment, by all means go on. So I dreamt that my little girl was asleep in her crib, but the crib wasn't ready and safe in that there were still things in the crib that shouldn't be (like extra blankets, toys, etc) and that the rails were down. So I panicked b/c I thought that she might either fall out or that she is in danger of SID (Sudden Infant Death due to those extra items in the crib). So I ran over to her crib, she was fine except that she didn't have a diaper on. So her little bottom was sticking straight up in the air. hehehe... kind of cute. So as I am putting a diaper on, my mom tells me to put diaper cream on her for diaper rash, even if she doesn't have diaper rash. So I thought, wow... does that help prevent it? I have no clue. advice from beyond? maybe? If that's true, how cool is that that my mom is giving me advice? ok, so obviously I haven't reached the TMI part yet. So I'm in the room and it's time to breastfeed her. This will be the first time. They say that when you first breastfeed it's not milk just yet. It's called colostrum and is much thicker than the actual milk. OK... that was a little TMI, but it's about to be more. So forwarning. Skip to the next paragraph if you you don't want to know. It may be a little gross too. Why I'm blogging about it? I don't know. whatever. ANYWAY, so little girl is really excited she's about to eat and she has the most precious smile ever! I mean, I know I'm biased as her mother, but I've never seen anything like it. The kind of smile that puts you in a good mood instantly just seeing it. So I'm trying to get her to latch on and hope that breastfeeding goes well. Here's the gross part. Just like the books say, the colostrum comes easily but how gross. It's not just thick, but lumpy too! And my baby can't swallow it and suddenly I feel it in my mouth too and I TOO cannot swallow that! It's so gross. So I stop, clean out her mouth AND mine and try the other side. Same thing except this time I don't have it in my mouth. And my best friend Gina is watching the whole thing. hahahaha!!!! Don't ask me. Dreams are very weird these days!

OK, TMI gross stuff is over. So trying to analyze my own dreams and basing off of what I read in the books and online, I know I am anxious about breastfeeding because I really want it to work. I think I'm scared that it won't work and I really want it to. Everyone's different so there's no telling until I actually try whether it will work for me or not. Anyway... aside from that, the dream made me happy because I saw my daughter smile and my mom gave me advice from beyond. I'm not sure the advice is true, but whatever. I know my mom will be there. Ok... getting misty eyed so moving. on.

Junior thinks our daughter will be a dancer because in the car there is this one CD she moves a lot too. It's cute. And as I blog, she is doing cartwheels or something in there! haha!